life is a maze and love is like a riddle` ♥

Thursday, May 24, 2007 { 5/24/2007 11:30:00 PM }

in the morning met jane as usual. haha today super blur. i slept for the whole bus journey. so tired..!!! XP man. anyway had to call stuart again. haha both of them ar. so stubborn, dont want to sleep early. now... both of them falling ill. lol haha both of them dumb dumb. hehe XP bleh TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AR..!!! if not........!!!! hehe blehh dont tell yr. :]

took the bus. i feel so dead. so dumb. so blur. so lost. so confuse. so complicated. soo.............. haix speechless. bought milo and burger. haha then bought chocolate. haha then went to sch. super tired. went for chinese. lao shi came late. haha.! she miss the first lesson. jane, margaret and me were playing with the cube. jane and i kept letting mags to do the second last step cox she always forget. haha lol knock her head ar. listenin to mp3 too..! hehe

then lao shi came in. she let us watch SPIRITED AWAY..! i love the show. is super nice, touching etc. haha lol you should go and watch. haha i think i have the dvd. i go check. hehe next was recess. jane n i ate our burger then went down to the canteen to find rj n pris. got our drink then went back to class. slack arnd then it was accounts. haha i slept. teacher was late for half an hour. -_-" in the end ms kalpana came. she explain revenue and capital expenditure. haha so blur. lol JAMES..!! I NEED YOU TO TUTOR ME ACCOUNTS..!!! HELP.! hhahaha lol

next was maths. lol danielle and i started to do the paper 2. so xian. haha lol i done half way already. so dumb. haha next was geography. haha jus copy. while copying, i was doing maths. haha once i start to do maths questions, i wont stop. and when i stop, i really stop and wont continue until when im bored. hahaha lol i dont know why also. hehe mrs fam was so high today. we kept laughing non stop. didn know she is "old". XP haha she can be my mother. but she look like she is in her early 40s. but she is 52. is like WOAH..!!! so diff. haha

pei fu. before mummy was ill, she also look young when she is actually 50. haha but now. haix.! i wanna turn back time.! i wna stop the time. im very tired. at least slow down to let me catch up and accept the reality la. sign everything jus come and go so fast. T_T i cant. help?! sign aft sch, waited for stuart at stairs. rj, maple, jane and i while waiting, we were talking. haha random. hehe then rj suddenly say: eh, he cut hair is it? i expected she was talking abt stuart so when i turn back, the first person i saw was eight alphabets. -.- lol so stupid. dumb dumb

look away and pretend nothing happen. bleh.! XP trying to let go. memories go away. shooo..! hahahaha lol jus being lame. haha accidentally hit maple finger. haha sorry. then we went to long john silver to eat. lol third time in a row liao. -_-" xian..! aft eating i went to visit huijin. said hi then waited for maple to come out. she finally came out with a paper with her face 0.0 then i was thinkin. i got a feeling is a bad news. soo.....

maple: eh.! you working this sunday morning.!
nic: 0.0 WHAT?!?! oh my goodness. i tot im fired.? LOL haha
maple: nope. your name is on the schedule.
nic: what the. your kidding. ( saw the schedule, nearly got heart attack.! )

i mean, where got like tt want? i think they lacking of crew. haha.! lol i dont feel like working neh. so xian. but maple say if i dont come, she also dont come. -_-" if like, worst ar the problem..! lol haha i dont want to wear the stupid shrek hairband. but i want the hairband only, but dont want to wear it. LOL. hahahaha bleh..! hope nobody i know come. haha i swear i will look darn toot. haha lol and i swear maple will go crazy over it. hahaha lol

aft tt maple n jane took train to bishan. stuart n me train to braddel. he go home, i go meitong's hse for cell grp meeting. met dasiree n zl. met px under the block. lol haha they started already. XP the word was so meaningful..! i just felt tt i have neglected god. when i entered the hse, i felt like the first time coming. i felt so weird. i felt the presence of god. i need help from god but i dont know wad to say or do. i feel super lost. i feel super confuse and blur. oh lord, please let me draw closer to you. i want to follow you. dont leave me alone.! i need you. please lord. help me. :'(

aft service, have the urge to tell meitong wad happen. i spill everything out abt my family, financial and health prob. im glad i did. she agree to help me financially. but my family, we have to leave it for god to help us, help me.! sign im really lucky to know meitong.! and N284.! <333 i really dont know wad to do without them. my right leg hurts like crazy. i was limping all the way. we went to botak jones to eat. i shared fish n chips with meitong. so full..! couldn finish. haha lol so thirsty. played games. haha left with jere n JL. haha lol

lucky jere is "kind" enough to help me carry my bag cause i was really tired. haha thanks boy..! hahaha.! and i needed water though and u help me finish. thanks. lol hahaha.! bleh was so dead in the bus. stupid mp3 abit the crazy. have to get the warranty card FAST..! XP hhaha lol sorraye. very tired. reach home at 9. so shag. lol haix TOMORROW END SCHOOL AT 10.30..! YEAH..! haha lol i needa get my ezlink card..! im super broke like crazy. haha lol XP i needa money. i hate money. why is it so torturing? why does it make people suffer when they dont have them? xian -_-" irritating. I FREAKING FOUND MY OLD SIM CARD..! oh man. xian. -_-" im so freaking stupid idiotic girl. LOL haix

sign. who do you give the looks..? as if im not even your friend. lol really curious n confuse.... -_-" yepp i think u have move on with another relationship already right? haix i really speechless. i dont feel like myself nowadays. i cant accept the fact. why does it end so fast? why does all good things end so fast? why? i dont understand u guys. really. so weird. can u like talk? why must u keep quiet? why must guys keep quiet or act blur when they dont want to say, dont dare to say or dont know what to say.????? and why must girls answer the questions when they are asked to. so unfair..! XP bleh. today special. have to song. hmph KELLY CLARKSON - NEVER AGAIN & FERGIE - BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY..

I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but i don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned away

I never read your letter
'Cos i knew what you'd say
Give me that sunday school answer
Try and make it all ok

[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there for you
Bet it sucks, seeing my face everywhere
It was you, who just ended like you did
I was the last to know you knew
Exactly what you would do
It don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but i never will
Never again

If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
When your day comes and he'll be through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Give me that sunday school answer
Repent yourself away

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Never again will i hear you
Never again will i miss you
Never again will i fall to you
Never

Never again will i kiss you
Never again will i want to
Never again will i love you
Never

[Chorus]

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]